Men (well, women too), your opinions and insight, please.?

So, I'm a big girl. I get around fine, have a great time, go out and do things and overall I'm very confident. On the outside, anyway. I take pride in my appearance, am a devout Christian, am a full time college student and preschool teacher. I live on my own. I know I have a lot of good going for me. However, I have a hard time dealing with my weight. I've been under going testing for a few hormone disorders and such the last few months, some of which have led my doctor to believe my weight is caused a lot by it, not all, but a lot. I feel almost defeated despite my, "healthier than the average size 2" lifestyle and the fact that I'm still single at 22 with never having a serious relationship. The one thing I want more than anything in life is marriage and kids. But it's the one thing I don't think I'll ever get. I'm "okay" with the weight but I know that 9 times out 10 guys are not. I respect that, I do. We all have physical preference and I know fat isn't usually one of them. I have a pretty face, in my opinion, and am told constantly how pretty I am and how no one ever notices my weight because of how well I carry myself and how awesome my personality is but I fear that won't be enough for any one to ever love me. I'm truly afraid no one will ever love me and it breaks my heart. I've been hurt so many times. It's like every guy likes me enough to adore me, value my opinions, think I'm pretty, want to be around me all the time, be my best friend, etc, but not enough to want me. I guess this isn't much of a question, I just need some relief. Everyone is so sure that I'll find someone some day. That I have so much love to give and will be an awesome wife and mother. I feel much of the time it's just their way of trying to make me feel better, but I want to believe it. And as awkward as it is to say this, having a fat mons pubis makes me feel so unfeminine and way more unattractive than I would feel if it were normal. I feel like it will be a turn off to any guy, even the ones who like big girls. I don't know. I'm not sure what to even ask. If you have anything to say, please share. I'm sorry this was long. Thanks ahead of time!